I’m always on high alert

SYouFu! So You Fucked UP!

When you are in a relationship with a married man, you are always on high alert.

Yes, there is the obvious high alert… You don’t want to get caught!

But there are other things as well, that keep you on high alert, that you probably don’t even realize you are doing.

You are constantly making sure you look good, in case he surprises you with a visit.

You are constantly looking at your phone, so you don’t miss his messages.

You have your phone on you at all times just in case he calls, and you freak out if you misplace your phone for even 5 minutes!

And if he DOES message or call you while you are with others, you freak out and scamper off trying to find a quiet space away from them, so that nobody asks you any questions.

And this state of being on high alert, eventually takes its toll on your health.

It is simply not sustainable, but you don’t even realize you are doing it, so you don’t understand when your body and mind start giving you signs…

You just don’t know…

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Have you ever considered the impact this relationship is having on your health, emotionally, mentally and even physically?

Have you even realized you are on constant high alert?

The stress of it all, and not being able to talk to anyone about it, can be crippling.

I remember it all too well.