I shouldn’t be fighting for a spot

After five years, I began to realize I wanted more than THIS.

I had fallen in love with a married man and he was still married.
And I was still “single”.

During this time, he had made me promises, which he had never kept.
He had packed his bags, ready to move out from his wife, three or four times, I don’t actually remember how many times.
And each time, something came up, that stopped him from going through with it.

I refused to ever give him an ultimatum.

My thinking being, if he was going to be with me, it had to be HIS choice, not because I had forced him into a corner.

So the cycle continued.

Until he broke one promise too many, and it shattered my heart.
I can still feel the pain, thinking about that day.

He had told me to make sure my passport was ready.
We were going overseas for a week.
He needed to get away…
And he wanted me to go with him!

This was BIG!
He had never done this before, and I was like a child about to open a big birthday present.

We planned it for weeks. THIS was so exciting! I couldn’t wait!

And out of the blue he called me.
Told me he needed to get away…
And that he was taking his wife.

And I. JUST. BROKE…

And in that moment I realized if he wanted me in his life, he should have been putting me there.

I was NOT going to be fighting for a SPOT anymore!
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If you are tired of waiting, tired of fighting for a spot, tired of being his second choice, but unsure of what to do next, reach out to me.

I am not here to convince you to leave him.
I am not here to convince you to fight for him.
The choice is yours, and yours alone!