I was groomed my whole life to be able to address Infidelity
I sometimes feel like I have been groomed my whole life to be able to address the topic of infidelity.
As a small child I was witness to my dad’s numerous affairs, although at the time I just assumed he was being kind to these lonely ladies.
As a teenager, I realized what was going on, caught my dad out, and somehow became his fucking secret-keeper!
I thought my mother was going to hate me forever, because my dad told me she WOULD if she ever found out that I was keeping his secret!
And of course that fucked with my head so badly, that I could no longer bear to live in the same house as him.
So on a particular Friday, a few months before my 18th birthday, when he lost his shit and told me “It’s my way or the highway,” I was still at school at the time, but I hit the road and didn’t look back.
Enter new boyfriend, who cheated on me numerous times, but according to his Italian father, if I wasn’t going to “put out” for his son, what did I expect? A man has needs after all.
I was a fucking virgin, saving myself for his son!! WTF!
(Note to self: Call Ed and tell him what a dick he was!)
Later on down the track, as a young single mother of a one-year-old, I landed in the sights of the most amazing, charismatic man I had ever met. And he was a sharpshooter.
He woo-ed me, stole my heart, and I fell madly in love with him. Oops I nearly forgot to mention he was actually married at the time, just like he forgot to mention to me during his hunting phase.
In the beginning I was naïve enough to stupidly assume that the woman working at our firm, with the same surname as him, was probably his sister! My mind boggles thinking about that now!
Our relationship lasted for many years.
And I have also been the woman, who was suffering from post-partum depression, and ended up in the arms of another man.
And I paid DEARLY for that!
So when it comes to infidelity, I literally have been there, done that, and got all the fucking T-shirts!
Am I proud of all the shit I have just told you. Absolutely not!
But I AM PROUD OF THE WOMAN I AM TODAY, because I went through one hell of a time becoming her!
And I am not afraid to talk about a taboo topic that everyone else seems to run away from!!
Bravely and with love,
Annie